June 27, 2011
Blackwomanfightingdepression, mental health, painful periods, Uncategorized
Bad Girls' Club, Basketball Wives, Ben and Jerry, Cita's World, cramps, depression, Hip Hop Wives, jump offf, Maury Povitch, Mood, painful periods, Star Jones. For the Love of Ray J, thug missus
After six months of disappearance my friend came back. She was not missed. I did not even think about her in the least because she was a pain in the asthma attack. Whenever I knew she was coming around I would cringe and brace myself, and I would get warnings two weeks before she showed up. Like clockwork I always knew when her triflin’ butt would appear, wrecking havoc on my life. It was like Basketball Wives, RHOA , Hip Hop Wives, Star Jones and BET’s old girl “Cita” from “Cita’s World“, rolled into one. Add a dash of a thug missus from “Bad Girls’ Club“, a shot of a contestant from “Maury” and a jilted jump off from “For the Love of Ray J” and you get the picture. This child was conniving and a backstabber, so I prepared for her with a bag of salt and vinegar chips and copious amounts of Ben and Jerry’s Chocolate anything, the more chocolate the better. When my friend was around I craved protein just to deal with her so a nice medium rib eye did the trick.
After leaving from around me I felt much better. My moods were better and I could think clearer. But I knew that heifer would be back. She didn’t care how old I was she wanted to mess with me. I told her I was too old to for her to be hanging around, and she just laughed and said that she’ll be back because she enjoyed messing with my head. I replied, “You narcissistic, blatant, b, u were gone for half a year and now you wanna come back?!”
What I just described was my menstrual cycle. Happy Monday!!
April 4, 2011
Blackwomanfightingdepression, mental health
depression, Jr., Martin Luther King, protest, rain
This is also Martin Luther King Jr.’s Anniversery of his death. I think how extremely brave this man was knowing that death was imminent. He spoke out against discrimination and risked his life so that we can have a better world. Rev, King followed the non-violent strategies of Gandhi, who fought to overcome the oppression of the British in India. King was an inspiring speaker, his cadence so powerful and reassuring. I think back to the fifties and ask myself, would I be brave against german shepherd dogs, fire hoses and billy clubs? Constantly being taunted by people filled with hate? How would I fare as a person with depression? Would I be invigorated or plain tired, sitting on the sidelines?
March 8, 2011
Love of self, mental health
birthday, depression, economic growth, solo, spirituality, vows
Today is my birthday. I wish that I had a wonderful party surrounded by friends and family at an upscale locale. But being broke and tired , that could not happen. Well I need to reframe and shift the paradigm. My next 45 years on earth I want to enjoy and actually live. I am no longer in a profession that drains me and now I can focus on my spirituality and financial goals. I still hope to help others and maybe meet a soul mate. Over the past several months I have neglected myself something terrible and my habits and routines were deplorable. I slept all day, didn’t keep a “good house” and wondered why I wasn’t happy. The stress in my life caused my hair to fall out, checks were bouncing left and right, male friend was demanding, I could go on and on.
However, I can do better! Happy Birthday Me!