May 28, 2011
cramps, Mood, pity party, sleeping, uterine fibroids
I disappeared. I slept all day and had a major pity party.I looked at my car and saw how dirty it is. My floors need cleaning. The dog needs a bath and a hair cut. The large fibroid in my back area became bothersome and I could not locate the Advil.
But you know what? I will regroup and come back with insight and humor. I promise.
May 23, 2011
Blackwomanfightingdepression, mental health, painful periods, Satoshi Kanazawa, Uncategorized
acupuncture, frenemy, Grey's Anatomy, In Style Magazine, kava kava, La Mer, Madea, st john's wort, the pill, tyler Perry, valerian tea, yerba mate tea
Well, the author of the so-called study on Black Women being the most unattractive might lose his teaching position at his London University. All fear the wrath of African-American women. Or as Tyler Perry’s book by Madea succinctly described it, “Don’t Make A Black Woman Take Off Her Earrings!”
During my early days of depression I recall taking St John’s Wort, it did nothing for me. Chinese ginseng Tea, bitter taste, time-consuming. Kava Kava for anxiety, and Valerian tea for anxiety. They did nothing for me. Please note that I did not take them at once! Please also note that I am not a physician nor play one on T.V. These statements in no way are endorsements for any herbal supplements, so keep this in your depressed or non depressed mind. If you can remember.
Ginseng tablets did work for energy but it gave me a jittery feeling after. Also, acupuncture for my menstrual cramps did work for me the one time I went under the tiny needles placed in strategic locations. I remember saying to my self, this is what it is like to be normal, cramp, and symptom free. I see now why they call menstrual cycles the “curse” and my favorite, “your friend”. That heifer is no friend of mine, she ain’t even a frenemy. But seriously, the one hundred dollars a pop non insurance covering injections were to costly for my budget, so I went on the pill to control my symptoms with extra hormones.
Long, long ago, back in the 90’s, In Style magazine was in its infancy stage and some celeb or flavor of the month diva mentioned that she drank Yerba Mate for energy. I thought, this is a revelation because it was South American. I also thought it was a revelation because it wasn’t the “I use the astronomical La Mer face cream all over my body and go to the spa weekly” bit that makes me want to hurl a platform shoe at the wall. I tried the yerba tea in mint flavor and loved it. I learned that you shouldn’t drink the tea after five pm because you will NOT sleep that evening.
Those botanical herbs from the rain forest. Gotta love them. Yerba Mate tea can be found in Whole Foods or any health food store. But remember, I am not a doctor, nurse, intern, etc. I just like watching” Grey’s Anatomy”.
May 18, 2011
Blackwomanfightingdepression, Internet, Racism, Satoshi Kanazawa, Uncategorized
Atomic Bomb, Bigots, Burundi, Caribou, Cowbells, Fat Beauty Pageants, FDR, German-Americans, Hiroshima, Ice Cube, Japenese Internment Camps, Kwanzaa, Latinas Marie Claire, Maine, Methodology, People Magazine, Phallus, Psychologists, Saline Injections, Servers, Validation, WWII
I am sorry gentle readers for my absence. The news has been quite intriguing. evolutionary psychologist Satoshi Kanazawa wrote a “scientific article” on how Black Women are considered the least attractive out of all ethnicities. He stated that Black Men were even more attractive than Black Women. Since then, the article has been removed because the server crashed. Cyberspace was on fire with folks heated. Who is this guy?
Well it turns out this ASIAN-American man has a history of saying stupid, controversial things such as, Women are essentially prostitutes, feminists are wrong, attractive couples have more daughters, the rabbit kicked the bucket, I need more cowbells, Ice Cube is a pimp, etc. This scientist with the Kwanzaa Black holiday sounding last name openly courts controversy and magazines allow him to spread his poison to the masses in our wonderful melting pot of American Society.
Unfortunately for Black Women, they get caught up in this firestorm. I see many, but not all, with necks swerving, writing: But “they”, insert group, are always trying to get a tan, butt implants, lip injections, and hair extensions. The super intellectuals will be to inform you that the bustle was created to resemble the Black Female figure after the sensation of the Hottentot Venus. And so on.
Then the Latinas and Whites reply, “Your own men don’t want your ghetto arses” and they proceed to name check every Famous and not so Famous Black Man that has dated outside their race.”
The exchange gets to be very hostile but it does not even solve anything.
Yet it does not even answer the question of who in Sam Hill allowed this overcompensation for lack of size pseudo scientists to propagate these incendiary ideas. His research methods are flawed and suspect. Who were the people that he questioned? Were they from Caribou, Maine or members of the New Nazi Party? Could they have been people of color who bleach their skin and harbor such self-hatred? How large was your sample and did you ask anybody from the East Side of Detroit or in Burundi or a country where they have Fat Beauty Pageants? Did you use data from plastic surgeons who tweak appearances or just thumb through Marie Claire and People and counted the model and celebrities and then constructed your high fallutin’ bar graphs?
I don’t know “Mr. Kwanzaa” Quack Social Scientist, perhaps you take your hypothesis from experiments from the 1800’s where the African brain was considered smaller than the European one, especially since this was the time that Africa’s resources were plundered by European empires? Do you discuss how Asians have eye surgery to get a more western look, or during WWII Japanese Women injected their breast with silicone to make their breasts look bigger for American Servicemen? Speaking of WWII due to racism the atomic bomb was not dropped in Berlin, Germany but….Hiroshima and Nagasaki. Japanese Americans were placed in interment camps and German-Americans during the war years either fought in the war or listened to FDR broadcasts… in the comforts of the home.
I could easily post links to phallus size from where your antecedents come from, based on legitimate scientific study. They come out on the er, shorter end of the stick. Nevertheless, if I went and methodically investigated your past I could reveal without a doubt where your hatred comes from. Already, petitions have gone around denouncing your quackery, thereby decreasing your income streams because I know greed is a major incentive for what you do. Happy Kwanzaa, six months ahead of schedule!!
P.S. The American born Kanazawa’s surname means “marsh of gold.” Nothing in my cursory google research describes anything about his personal life, jus, just stuff like girls liking pink and Asians lacking creativity. I am not making this up!! He is an equal opportunity bigot who denounces “political correctness”. Marsh of excrement is more like it.
We do not need anyone else to validate our beauty.
May 18, 2011
Blackwomanfightingdepression, Rainy Day, Uncategorized
Aisha Tyler, bare patches, blog sites, broke, Comedy, inner diva, lawn, Maya Rudolph, Mo'Nique, Queens of Comedy, Seattle, Tina Fey, Urban Comedy, Wanda Sykes, What Would Thembi Do, windows
Last week the weather was phenomenal. Beautiful, sunny days, 70 degrees, real springlike. If you live in a climate where there are four seasons, you really appreciate spring. Especially since winter was atrocious on the east coast. I don’t know the polling numbers of folks who believe in global warming/climate change, but the changes in weather has been noted by scientists. Those against theories are certainly adamant and believe it to be a hoax. Nevertheless, companies are trying to go green and there is a whole movement and economy based on sustainables, recycling and protecting the environment.
For me the challenge is to not let the weather affect me. I don’t want to feel like I am in Seattle where it rains frequently and residents are said to be depressed and suicidal. I can’t go there. That’s why I spent some time today on two sites that crack me up: “What Would Thembi Do” and “Aw Hell Naw”. The photos crack me up and usually the topics are on horrendous fashion fails and “coonery”. As a matter of fact, I am going to have to add them to my blog roll. Thembi sounds like a sister I would hang out with, and she just earned her Master’s Degree. Funny people crack me up and especially females, because all too often women focus on their looks and snaring a man. Meanwhile, for some men, the player types are the one that focuses on quantity and not quality. But back to females with a sense of humor…Tina Fey, Maya Rudolph, Aisha Tyler, are hiliarious, and can act, write and produce. Queens of Comedy, i.e., Mo’Nique, Sommore, Wanda Sykes are comical as well, catering to their urban audiences. So, I am not going to let the rain bother me, and appeal to my strong inner diva. (I am still broke as hell) Overcast, dark cloudy days, showers will water my bare patch riddled front lawn. I will look out my windows, after washing them, they are filthy, and envision a green oasis.Rain will not depress me, it will instead invigorate me.
May 16, 2011
Black Hair, Uncategorized
broke, gas prices, loaded words, parties, productivity, vacation
I am broke. I have a mailbox full of invites but can’t go nowhere because gas is almost $4.00 a gallon. That won’t get me anywhere at all. But the positive thing is I can work on my writing and my business plans. That, my friends, is a beautiful thing.
I earn one-fourth of my income from three years ago and although still depressed, I am a lot happier. A swift kick in the rear would do me well–I know what has to be done. So I am off of Facebook, refusing to be suckered in by the folks discussing where they are going with their inclusion of liquor brand names, guest lists, dj shout outs and so on.
I need to be on someone’s beach because the ions in the air are so therapeutic.
Let’s Get It Done.
*BTW, “have to”, “need to”, etc are words that cause people angst. So excuse me for these loaded words.
May 14, 2011
Bible Study, Hope, Persevere, Relationship
I asked these two women why they were so happy. They replied studying the word of God and knowing that he is a God of love and compassion. He knows what we are going through and all the tribulations of the world. He does not cause the suffering or create it. Faith sustained these lovely sixty plus year old women. They did not care about all the trivial b.s. out there, but were concerned with my happiness and seeing that I understood questions I had about God.
In retrospect, people with relationships with God are more happy, and seem to prosper. They are not bogged by the mundane and persevere. Hope. Such a small word but filled with possibilities. These lovely women invited me to worship on Sunday at 12:30. Guess where I will be?:)
May 13, 2011
Blackwomanfightingdepression, Distractions, Politics, Racism, Uncategorized
Newt Gingrich is running as a Republican Candidate for President against President Obama. He referred to President Obama as “The Food Stamp President”. More race baiting. This is kind of old. Due to the recession people were forced to receive food stamps, welfare and unemployment just to survive. Americans wanted to work but there were no jobs available. I believe it was due to the fact that there was something called the global Great Recession. In previous posts I explained in layman’s terms what caused it, so I won’t repeat myself. The fact is, once you use loaded terms people’s defenses go up. My stress levels increase and I am reminded how dirty politics can be. I despise hypocrites and feel that they are fleecing the public’s pockets to become richer. Double Standards become the norm and real issues do not get solved.
Gingrich led the call for former President Bill Clinton’s impeachment, due to his lying over having an affair with Monica Lewinsky. Meanwhile Gingrich was enjoying his own tawdry affairs and his excuse was “he was working too hard.” He was working too hard alright. Right into the bed of some strumpets.
And what does this phrase “We Need To Take America Back Mean?” America is the land of opportunity and we supposedly have freedom, but does the aforementioned phrase mean a thinly veiled reference to back from a Black Man who many still believe was not born in the US? Do they mean America that launches wars primarily on people with khaki color skin and take and exploit countries resources? Where the rich and corporations get tax breaks and the poor become poorer? Lynchings and separate water fountains and back of the bus and illegal medical experiments and environmental pollution and counting coloreds as three fifths of a person? I keep hearing talk about children’s futures and grandchildren’s futures but no real talk on Wall Street Reform. What is wrong with making sure that Americans have adequate healthcare instead of executives at health insurance companies getting massive bonuses? And don’t get me started on oil prices and immigration.
Why do some people of privilege argue that the poor are lazy as if they have the best schools and environment to thrive in? I can go on and on but it saddens me. As the racial and ethnic demographics in the US shift to minority being majority, I shudder to think of what rhetoric and legislation will become prevalent and accepted as gospel and law.
I have two advanced degrees, no criminal background, but people still prejudge me and underestimate my intelligence. Elderly women tighten their purses and bigots devise ways to marginalize me. Some people really think affirmative action is reverse discrimination.
I know whose child I am.